Sirens of Titan

"It took us that long to realize that a purpose of
human life, no matter who is controlling it, is to love
whoever is around to be loved." (Vonnegut:220)

This was my favorite line in The Sirens of Titan. I think its a nice message.

Commitment Issues

I am trying to write this screenplay for my class. I like the subject matter, characters are mildly entertaining. And yet I cannot stick to it! Every time I start working on it, my mind wanders to my newest screenplay idea and all I want to write about is that. I can't decipher which is the more sensible premise to explore. Why must I be so indecisive?! Ugh, its quite annoying really. Bassel always asks me where I want to eat and I always say "I don't care." I usually don't though. As long as it isn't seafood or Vistango, I am usually fine with whatever. I am picky, but can usually find something to eat wherever we go. I always feel that if someone else feels strongly, I'd just assume do what they want because I'm easy. I don't know if this is me not being able to make up my mind, or me just being extremely agreeable. Or maybe somewhere in the middle?

Commitment issues aren't new to me...they seem to pervade my life every which way I go. I am indecisive and am bad at communicating--usually because I can't decide what I want--which causes a lot of problems. Oh well. I've matured a little over the years, but I'm still no expert. Its so much easier to just go with the flow and evade questions...its nice that way for a while...until it isn't. I wish someone would just tell me what to do sometimes. Tell me what to do so that neither me, nor anyone else, gets hurt. But there is no such person. There is only me.