He Loves Me, He Loves Me NOT

Somehow I always seem to be the center for information and knowledge. I get the random calls and texts from my friends about our film projects....When is the directing project due? How should I format my resume? What time is the meeting? Etc. In addition to the scholarly stuff, I also seem to be a person whom people feel comfortable talking to and relaying information to. I like this role, I like helping people. Sometimes it can be troubling though. I worry that I am giving the best form of advice to people. I know that everyone is different and everyone has different needs in terms of forms of advice. I try to adapt to each friend and be what they need me to be at that particular moment. Whether its advice on something major, or a shoulder to cry on, or just someone to listen to all the thoughts roaming around in their heads.

Sometimes I have to say things that people don't want to hear. That is hard. I have this friend who has been in a troubling relationship for months upon months now. And she just will not give it up. Its the most frustrating thing in the world! I have to counsel her all the time and she still does not see what a bad situation this is. I know that breaking up is hard to do, but if things are bad for a certain amount of time, you just have to be realistic in knowing that they aren't ever going to go back to how they were. Relationships are supposed to be fun! And when they aren't, then they need to end! Relationships shouldn't be that hard!

I am listening to a friend obsess over her ex/current boyfriend (I have lost track) at this very moment. She wants me to tell her that he is still in love with her, but I don't think I can do that. I don't like insisting things that I don't know for sure are true. I don't get girls' hopes up just to make them feel better, I can reassure them that they will find love again. But I'm not going to make up stories about how their boy will definitely come crawling back to them. I am a complete realist about matters of the heart, and I don't think it helps to initiate false hopes in people. Sometimes the truth stinks. But I'd rather hear a stinky truth than a falsity.

Girls are so silly sometimes. I don't get it. For some reason, I have a feeling that my mind works different than a lot of girls my age. I react to things so much differently, I don't obsess over boys or over-analyze what to text to them. I just do it, and I feel confident in my decision without having to ask a gaggle of other girls first. Its funny, because I am so girly in some ways, and so un-girly in others!

Spring Break

So Spring Break was a much needed relief from the craziness of school. Things have been a bit screwed up lately...my actions keep seeming to be misconstrued. But what can you do. I am what I am.

I don't know how the break managed to speed by so quickly. I spent the first half of it at home mostly or with Asha. I also spent a day at SXSW watching some films. Ma didn't take off work so I hardly saw her at all :(

Then on Wednesday, my friend's band came into town. They were all staying at our house while they played at SXSW. We went downtown a whole bunch and they got me in through the back door to see a bunch of music shows for free. It was pretty sweet! I felt like I was in Almost Famous or something. Everyone was so chill backstage and it was interesting seeing it all up close! To make things even more fun, Lucy and Justin were in town as well! I was excited to introduce Lucy to my fam!

I had only seen Dizzy Balloon perform once before, but they really are talented, fun to watch guys! I can't get over how much they move while on stage. None of the guys are ever standing still...well I guess Louie is kind of still because he is at the drums. But Joey on keyboard even manages to bounce around as he plays. Petros who sings is absolutely adorable! If you have never heard them, you should definitely check out their album. Its really fun...I like every song on it, which is rare!

I was bad and tanned and got sunburned too! Ugh, I better not get skin cancer.

The Semester Midpoint

Gosh, so much has happened!


We finished filming for one! It was a long haul but we made it!!!! I think the movie is going to turn out really funny, we seem to have gotten good material. I love our crew, even though filming every weekend as long and stressful, I really did have a good time. There are only two girls on the crew and one of which is a production designer and would often be off buying stuff while we were filming, so I was usually the only female crew member. But it was kinda fun being with all the boys! We were joking on set constantly...it was a great experience.


Sadly, as I was filming, I had to miss 2 Troy Camp kids events! I was really sad, but I finally got to go to my first kids event of the semester--career day! It was a blast. There was a film production station and I told the kids all about my major and afterwards they became obsessed with making little films from common fairytales and filming them. Andrea, one of my favorite campers, was the director and she'd tell Jimmy what to film with his camcorder. They had a blast.